i had no use
for knowledge.
i ran wild then curled into
the protective ball of the gifted child.
i preferred to under-
play my true potential,
rather than prove it
was illusion. hiding, everything
seemed so binary.
everything. i craved
grayness. i confess
i wanted to stay
in between
kid and adult,
dabbler and professional.
i wasn't ready to practice
a vocation. i was so young.
it was
awful.
it was
wonderful.
it was
college.
